When I arrived at work today there was a pile of magazines on my desk. I assumed I was to look for book-related articles, but sometimes couldn't help but pause to read the occasional article. I now remember why I have never been all that fond of magazines: they hardly have more than one article worth reading so why spend around ten dollars for one or two pages of words? Plus they often have very smelly samples that make me sneeze. 

After looking at a couple magazine I remembered i wanted to call my landlady about my floor and the questionable comment about being short on my rent. her message said to call her when my apartment was ready for fixing, but told me it wouldn't be today though i finally had warning. she said that she was referring to my "last month's rent" not the last rent i paid that was going to be short because the rent increase goes over what i have been paying with my lease. at least i understand what is going on even though i'm still crazy worried about money. 

When my boss finally showed up -late as per usual- he eventually took me to the alcohol store to pick up more drinks for yet another event. Ironically, the cashier noticed my boss' work credit card and asked if we volunteered at the publisher. Boss said no and I mentioned I was the intern. Turns out that the cashier was a graduate of our program too, only a few more years ago. While boss was paying, the cashier and i chatted, but couldn't linger cuz we had to get back to the office. 

the rest of the morning was more magazines, but by the time I was halfway through the stack i was sick of magazines and ready for lunch. I had brought my camera today with the intent of taking pictures during my break, but thought perhaps i could stop by to see the cashier again if i could get up the nerve. i happened to be texting karoline1982 at the time and she said to go for it, yet didn't have a clue about what i should say. 

nevertheless, i went and just asked him about life after graduation. he hasn't been able to get another internship let alone a job, and it kind of makes me wonder what he's doing wrong since both my boss and the underling were last years graduates. my boss is full time and the underling has done contract work and is filling in a mat leave right now, but perhaps he didn't keep up with his contacts or something. I learned that he's 28 and working at the boozer store since high school/college. He went into b+M with the intent to edit but left it willing to do any job. If he doesn't get a job in publishing by the end of next month, he is planning to apply for advertising and go back to school. 

It turns out that all the boozers come out around 1pm because the store was pretty busy. Nevertheless we talked as he dealt with customers and he offered me his email address in case i have any questions. I emailed him a little later in the afternoon just to thank him again and say that he can email me whenever should he think of something that might interest me. 

boss, underling, and i spent the afternoon wrapping more books. one book will be a mailing of over 300 but i only managed one province so far. another mailing was started earlier this week, but due to a lack of necessities the remainder was put off until today. let's just say that three people still did not get all the mailings even near to completion there are that many books!

by 4:30 boss and i started setting up for the celebration in which we got the alcohol for. Jennifer Egan, this year's pulitzer prize winner for fiction, was coming by the office as RHC is her publisher! isn't that amazing??? we did a (cheap) champaign toast that i actually missed since i was in the kitchen filling a glass with water and then a book signing. everyone still at work -it was now after 5:30pm- got a free book for her to autograph. Jennifer was really nice and made sure to ask about each person she was meeting as she signed the book. she asked me about my internship and how i was liking it and so forth. 

there wasn't anyone cute on the transpo like the guy i managed to help with directions yesterday, nor did i see the cute bus driver. i just got in, checked my mail (junk), stuck some food in the micro, and read a book until i finished it. Now it is long past my bedtime, but I had to write about my wonderful wednesday of a day. 

SUMR

PS. I'll be sure to upload my pictures soon!!!

I am just so, so mad. 

First, I had bought a bus pass from a vendor machine, but it was the wrong one. I asked the traspo counter person where i could get a college student pass with a debit card and he pointed me to the machine. It only gave the option of adult or student/senior so I assumed I needed to get the student card. NOPE! Once I read the back of the card I realized the one I had was for high school kids, not college. But since it was a Friday, everything was closed until Monday when I could finally ask someone what to do. 

I was told to go to a specific station to exchange it and, since I only had just enough bus tokens for the month, I asked my boss if it was okay that I be late arriving to work today so I could deal with it on my way. I set my alarm to get up a half-hour early so I wouldn't take too much time dealing with the issue.

Even with that extra time, I didn't get out of my apartment until the same time I usually leave. I wasn't able to get on the first bus that went by, but I got on the second. I then transfered to a west-bound subway car that was stuffed to the gills, then got off to switch to a north-bound. I wasn't able to get on the first northbound that arrived because it was so full, but i squeezed onto the second. 

I got lost in the station because they had so many different doors that did not connect to the same areas of the building so I kept having to go in and out trying to find the office I needed. I had to wait in a line that wasn't too long, and then I had to reverse the process of going to that station except instead of taking a bus at the end I had to walk to the office cuz I didn't know what bus or street car to take. It didn't take very long though, so no worries. 

And even with all of that, I made it to work for 9:15am. *L0L*

While at work I kept getting phone calls on my cell phone, but I couldn't answer it nor were they leaving a message. When there finally was a message it was from my landlord saying that the maintenance man was going to look at my floor today. Um, what??? I know I filed a request form the other day, but I'm still supposed to get 24-hours notice before anyone's supposed to enter my apartment unless an emergency and my floor isn't one (even though it is slivering and lifting when trod upon). 

Needless to say, my apartment wasn't ready for visitors. I was exhausted yesterday and went to bed just after 10pm and I sure didn't have time this morning to clean. I planned on doing so when I got back from work today to be ready for when I got the warning call. I have piles of books everywhere and laundry on the floor by my bed and my latest crochet project by my couch; not a disaster zone but neither does it allow work to be done on my floor.

I got more calls in the afternoon that went unanswered until yet another message. The landlady was mad that my apartment wasn't clean enough for my floors to be dealt with. DUH! Give me frikken warning and it would have been! It was in my contract that I'd be notified, so follow it!

Oh and also in that message she said that I was short on my rent. Heck no I'm not! I got a lease notice that my rent would go up as of August, not as of June. How does that make me behind on my rent I ask you? She also said that I should stop leaving her notes and just knock on her door to talk to her when I had a question. If she answered her door when I knocked I wouldn't be leaving her a note, now would I? I'm not going to call her when it is long distance any more than she likes calling me (which is another thing she was mad about doing). I have tried phoning and I always have to leave a message because she's not taking calls, and it's not like she has email so I could send it to her that way either. 

So when I got home from work I put my yard in the cupboard, my clean laundry in the closet, and my books crammed wherever I could find a flat surface. I moved my computer tower -it was on the floor by the worst spots- and my chairs and my small wood folding tables and everything was rearranged so that there was plenty of room to maneuver in the problem areas. 

While making supper my phone rang again and all I could think was, I am not answering that because it is my landlady probably calling to ask if my apartment was clean and to get out so the floors could be dealt with. I was frikken hungry and not budging. I figure I can call her from work tomorrow morning as soon as I arrive (I hope she sleeps in and I wake her *evil laugh*) so they have the entire frikken day without me in it to fix my floor. And BTW, in the message she said the flooring just needs to be glued back down. the stupid tiles are falling apart and giving me slivers, I vote replacing some of them! 

Apparently if I dont sign the lease I have to give two months notice and get out or my rent goes up $6 a month. Seriously? It would just keep going up and up and up nonstop and no one could say anything against it? That is cracked! I didn't want to sign a lease until I knew I had a job so I could afford to stay and I dont even finish my internship until when my lease ends. 

What if I don't get a job right away? What if I spend a month trying to find one? I only have enough money to get me through August if I'm careful, but I have to give two months notice and I dont have enough money for that. And even if I get a job immediately, who's to say I keep it for an entire year? what would happen if I lost my job and couldn't pay rent? I won't have any backup money to get my through another month let alone an entire year! I am beyond worried about all this, and don't know what to do. 

So I'm angry, I'm freaking out, and I burned my hand pulling supper out of the oven. 

Today sucks.

SUMR

The one thing I always hear is "If God is so good, if He is real, why does He let bad things happen?" 

 Do people not realizethat is probably THE dumbest question you could ask? Why does he LET bad things happen. Imagine what life would be like if he didn't "let bad things happen". We would be nothing more than puppets, having no choice in our actions, making no decisions in our lives.

We would merely be actors in a play that no one is watching. Our existence would be meaningless other than to occupy a being more supreme than ourselves; we would be something God could do when He gets bored and has nothing better to fill His time with (and He has a lot of it). 

Instead, God gave us free will. He gives us choices in our lives, He lets us decide whether we want to do good or do bad. It isn't so much that God lets bad things happen, it's the people doing the bad things that are the problem. They decide to do bad things, they make it happen. 

God made us all equal, he doesn't differentiate between race or personality or whathaveyou. To allow people doing good things to make their own decisions, but to remove freewill from the people who would do bad things, would take away that equality. The only other option to avoid bad things, is to punish us all and take away that right He previously gave us. 

Yes, the Bible does say that God knows everything that will happen, and, yes, He could stop all those bad things from happening... If He took away our free will. But He didn't and doesn't. Even with the knowledge that we are going to make poor decisions in our lives, He allows it so we learn from it. That, in the future, we may not make that same bad decision when it would mean more. He knows we will make wrong choices, but He hopes we will turn to Him instead. That even though we do wrong, we still want to have Him in our lives. God is hope and faith and love. In Him, we will always have those things. 

And if you still feel that if there was a God, He shouldn't let bad things happen, well. Think about Hitler. Think about Bonaparte. Both were men who apparently held promise as a leader, but allowed power to corrupt and turn into crazed tyranical dictators who thought their way was the only way. Does anyone really want God to take away our freedom? Do you really want someone like Hitler or Bonaparte to rule the universe? Considering the lengths people went to in order to be rid of those two men -aka massive world wars- I sincerely doubt it. 

God's way, at least in my opinion, is the right way but He doesn't force it upon everyone. He wants us to decide that we want Him in our lives. He gave us choices, the freedom to choose without fear. And before you say He is threatening us with the idea of Hell, if you don't believe in God why would you believe in Hell? And if you don't believe in God and Hell, that neither exists, why would you feel the need to be afraid? It's very contradictory of you.

It all comes down to the choices you make. If you want bad things to cease happening, than stop doing bad things yourself. And while one person may not seem to make difference in the bigger picture, it's one less person. And perhaps your doing good will influence someone else to be good, and they in turn seem to be so happy and fulfilled that other people will want to do better. In time, there just might be world peace. And all because you made the decision to change. 

So there you have it. God does NOT allow bad things to happen.

You do. 

SUMR 

So on Wednesday I got to take part in my first book launch! We left RH at 4:30 pm to pick up the food and drinks to take to the event location. We didn't consider how we were to get eight cases of beer into the building so while A & D were going back and forth carrying the cases, I was on the side of the street sitting on the remainder. There were window washer guys across the street and they kept hollering for me to bring it over. 

I discovered that the "snacks" were grapes and mixed nuts. Um... ALLERGIC!!! And I have told people I work with that I can't be near them *le sigh* I had to stay on the other side of the room all night, and wasn't even able to get a drink because all beverages were over in the far half of the room. Kind of a good thing cuz i have friggen clue how to use a beer opener thingie, so being assigned to the drink table wouldn't have been that great of an idea... *L0L*

My job was to take pictures of the event and to assist the author in whatever he needed -other than drink fetching. Thankfully he didn't need me and I just took pictures all night. Apparently I was supposed to get shots of all the bigwigs who showed up, but considering no one pointed them out to me, how the heck was I supposed to know who they were?! It was a total fluke that i got a pic of the mayer! 

When my boss D got in this morning he told me I got some fantastic shots and that some photos were being sent to Quill and Quire to see if they would use them for their mag *happy dance* The catch being that I was asked to send my five favourites, but what they really meant was to send the ones that showed what a success the event was. 

Here are some of my favourite shots: 

SUMR

Yesterday was fan-friggen-tastic! 

Okay, so getting up at 7:30am sucked big time, but it was a necessary evil. Both Da and I made it to church on time; me to practice that day's songs and Da cuz he was in charge of the soundboard that week. Melanie, Mariah, Shawn, and I all sing rather well, but Eva does not. Eva is older, so she has that old woman's warble-shriek that elderly ladies have when they sing as loud as they can  Thankfully Da turned her mic down so that she blended in with the rest of us. 

There were two new people, brought by Melanie I think. Bernie is the girl, awesome name or what?! Jordon is a guy, first time in a church or maybe just our church, and he's going to loyalist to be a journalist. He had already gone to Trent I think he said. They were also at our praise practice saturday evening, so i thought i should mention them too. 

Anyways, singing was awesome as per usual. I love to sing on the praise team! Even the pastor was somewhat interesting! The day's lesson was about God being love. Not that he loves, but that he IS love. Basically, what i got from it is that saying that God cannot love everybody is like saying a mum isn't capable of loving all her children (and before you say that some mother's don't love their kids, its not because they can't at all, they just can't be bothered). 

After church mum and i went grocery shopping. we went to the grocery store that had the really cute guy during my easter holiday break, but he wasn't there this time. and, yes, karoline1982, i looked! *L0L* I did get lots of yummies like chocolate milk, strawberry-kiwi juice, kraft dinner, etc though! 

when i was on my way home, late for the time i said to meet buttercup and b, it started to rain! we had planned to go for a walk so i wasn't sure what we were going to do. B was running late, i didn't get buttercup's text until i got back to the house, and it was friggen raining *ugh* thankfully my parents decided to go to a flea market so the three of us hung out to chat, goof around with a camera, and eat pizza. 

by the time we finished eating (aka two hours later) the rain stopped and the sun came out, so we decided to go on that walk.  my parents came home when i was in the loo brushing my teeth and buttercup answered the door, which totally freaked out the parentals but b was there too. they assumed that buttercup was b's hubby even though i'm fairly certain they met A briefly before *shakes head*

so we went for our walk in pete's point which was gorgeous. the drive over the bay was nice, the lilacs smelled gorgeous passing through them (much longer and my allergies would have kicked in though *L0L*). i jumped in the bay to splash around while the two B's dealt with their icky, smelly habit since i would choke to death had they smoked in the truck. 

i was wearing a dress and flip flops while the other two had on pants and running shoes. needless to say i was bitten like crazy by mosquitoes and they weren't touched. not that it is unusual for only me to get bit, the evil blood-suckers seem to alway prefer draining me dry if i'm there.

i would like to go back to the point sometime, but dressed more appropriately. there were so many nature shots i would have loved to get. really pretty flowers, interesting trees, the bay, a rusted out truck, all sorts of things! hmmm...  Karoline1982, did you want to come with us sometime with cameras??? you'll like the B's, i swear! *L0L* 

after leaving pete's point we came back over the bridge and decided to also walk in zwick's park. zwicks is kind of interesting in that it used to be the landfill site, but when the city grew right up to it, the powers that be had it covered with grass and turned into a park. now it has a playground, a bandshell, trails, a dog park, that sort of thing. 

once we got back, i mentioned to da that buttercup would love to see his "collection", which i knew B would also like but probably not understand as much about them as Buttercup but still more than i ever do. i think Da must have talked for over an hour about his "little hobby". i wouldn't be surprised if someday my da asks for buttercup's contact info to see if he wants to play with the "toys" -he did that with my friend/my friend's ex-boyfriend, hence i am nearly expecting it *L0L*

the two b's and i ended up spending a whole seven freaking hours together! then when buttercup got home he msg'd me, then b soon thereafter. the pair of them managed to walk me through getting msn live onto my computer so we could do video chats -though the stupid thing only seems to allow one at a time *grrr* but we ended up videochat or msging until about 3am.  needless to say, i really hated getting up at 8am this morning to get ready to head back to toronto. 

on the drive today i decided to amuse myself by taking photographs for something to do. i get spectacularly bored when road-tripping, unless i'm with someone amusing, and tend to get a touch car sick. As long as i'm occupied i usually feel fine, therefore the randomness of photo-taking. I have to say though that there were pretty colours of strappy things, bloomers on a truck, painted designs on vehicles, and other items of interest. 

There was an accident at one point which caused there to be a major back up of traffic. One car ended up on one side of the road, I didn't see what was wrong with it, and the other car was opposite it. That car had a spiderweb-shatter design on the passenger side of the windscreen and three teenage to early-twenties looking guys. But even after passing the accident traffic was still a touch slow... it seems some vehicle lost a girl's plastic playhouse off their load and smashed on the road causing the middle lane unusable and making it merge, thus causing a really odd reverse bottleneck effect. 

Oh, and not to mention... there was a lot of rain *bah* I was hoping that the weather would mimic yesterday and only rain for a short time before clearing up, but we had to deal with the downpour for as long as it lasted. Mum and I usually sing any song with the word "rain" in it that we can remember when this happens on our travels and the rain disappears shortly thereafter

 The weather did clear up, temporarily, and we were able to unpack all my things and even clean my apartment! Normally my parents don't do that, but mum noticed that there was shattered glass on my windowsill. It is kind of freaking that there was glass in my window, i don't recall it being there and worries me as to why it appeared this past weekend. I don't have new windows so where did it come from?  Anyways, mum went about picking up as much as she could while dad cleaned the outside of the windows; they now sparkle and shine  

Tomorrow, I have an important meeting that I'm to take part in that freaks me out so wish me luck on that! Plus, i am to help with an event on wednesday evening so even more luck required! 

But, that was my totally awesome weekend and the photos that B took during it!

SUMR

I had the weirdest dream ever... I can't remember it all, just mostly that it was weird. 

It had me, my friend C, F who is C's crush, K from work, H from school, and possibly some others. I only recall the part right before my alarm went off, but apparently in my dream K and F are best friends -possibly more. In my dream we were at a club or something and F tried to kiss me, but I gave him the cheek. F said there was no need to be shy, because it just humiliated me. Then he asked K "Since when do we let other girls hang out with us anyways?"  I told F that I only kiss boys I am actually dating, and K told F said something that implied that I won the sparring. I went back to the table that C was sitting at trying to figure out if I should tell her the boy she likes just tried to kiss me. 

Later, possibly another day, a bunch of us were going to a restaurant. The hostess said we could go right back, but when we got there the waitress was still getting ready for customers. Some tables didn't have chairs and some chairs didn't have tables. We ended up sitting around a table using dining chairs to arm chairs. I chose a wide armchair that had arms and big enough to sit cross-legged in it. F chose a spot far from me with K, and it was slightly awkward. 

And somewhere in there I had student bus tickets with H's name on them but the last name starting with an M (can't recall what) and in real life her name doesn't. I was trying to figure out if I had enough tickets for the next week at work with events, and if I was allowed to use them since -in real life- an employee at the station said that they are only for high schoolers. 

So there it is, my strangeness of sleeping. 

SUMR

Allo Darlins'

I got through my first week of interning and I really like it. I basically order books or courier books or mail out books, I put together the parts of press kits, i photocopy things, i file other things, i have learned how to bind a manuscript, i send out photos of covers and author pic to people writing articles about them, and that sort of thing. Speaking of making bound manuscripts, have you ever seen the machine that does it? It has teeth! I can totally imagine it being in a cartoon or have cg effects done in a movie because its just perfect for making scary *L0L* It is kind of interesting to hold a bound manuscript because you know in a year it will be a book on the shelves. 

There is only one girl around my age who seems nice, but she works in a totally different department so we only see each other when passing through the mail room. the only guy close to my age is my boss, though i do occasionally see the cute guy from my class since he is interning at RHC's "sister" company. I guess i wont be finding a boyfriend here *L0L*

I have been thinking about that a lot lately. In the past few months, two of my cousins have been mentioning that they really want to find a guy to settle down with. They are barely older than I am, one only by six months and the other by a year or so. I am turning twenty-eight this year and so I'm really feeling my singleness right now. What I dont know if it is because of my cousins, because of all the romance novels i read about nearing the dreaded 3-0, or if i am ready to think about marriage myself. 

Karoline1892 came over yesterday for a movie night, but before we even managed to start the movie we talked about books we thought the other would like to read, and the guys that have been in or are in our life. I have never had so much fun! It isn't often that I can find someone who will talk about books like that with me. Even my classmates didn't sit around chatting about the greatest novel they just finished even though we all wanted to go into publishing. Anyways, two of the guys I had mentioned to Karo the other day, I ended up talking to tonight online. 

There is this one guy I was kind of seeing for a while, a summer or two ago.  You may recall my mentioning him before, he is the one who had wanted to date me when we met years ago but i wasn't interested in that way at the time. He is so much like me in personality that everyone thinks we'd be the cutest couple, but i almost wonder if that isn't a problem. I can't help but wonder if I am right that we wouldn't work as a couple or if I would be losing out on the best thing that could happen to me, because I absolutely adore him... I'm just not sure I can fall in love with him. 

He moved away a while back and now I see him even less than before. I sometimes try to talk to him online but he's hardly ever on and I don't think he remembers to check his email. He is working insane hours, so he's really busy and doesn't have time for much else. Whenever we do manage to msg, it doesn't seem like we have anything to talk about. I don't remember us talking much before either, mostly just hanging out places together with friends. 

The other guy is one I had a crush on when I was in university. I saw him in the summers that I was home and later after I graduated because had the same favourite hangout. I knew at the time that he had a girlfriend, so we were only ever friends that verged on flirting. I don't think that he treated me any different really than any of the others, though I think he liked to tease me more because -as he says- I am very easy to fluster. We did have a lot of philosophical discussions, oddly enough, theology and books and the like. 

It was his birthday not to long ago so I had messaged him to wish him a happy birthday and ask how his day went. I found out tonight that we were messaging back and forth while he was out to dinner with his parents! I am horrified that I was so rude, but I didn't know and I even think he mentioned me to them since tonight he said they were wondering what denomination I was. They are very religious like my parents, and that kind of pushed him away from it if I remember our past discussions correctly, and he mentioned that they were preaching at him again. 

This one is a little bit more "bad boy" than the other in attitude, though I'm not sure why I think so. I have been praying about him for years that he will find a way back into faith and not entirely for unselfish reasons. I knew I shouldn't have a crush on him since he was in a relationship, but its not like i intended to do anything but look and talk. But I wanted him to be Christian because I was interested and because I wanted to know that he was saved. I really think he has the potential to be an all around wonderful person that the other guy already is. 

These past couple months I noticed that the second guy had been getting in touch with me more and more. We planned on going for coffee the while I was down over easter but it never happened. I was kind of worried about that because i thought his girlfriend would freak out since she was the jealous type. And tonight we spent at least four hours messaging and texting! I found out that he and his girlfriend broke up about a month ago, he isn't happy about it, and is now trying to fill his time with books, exercise, and friends. He says he always finds it interesting to talk to me, but I don't know if that is just because i make him laugh from my quirks or that i am actually a good conversationalist. I always worry about boring people.

Tonight we have made plans to try to get together the next time i am down, maybe for a walk or maybe hang out with a mutual friend of ours that promised to come visit me this time when i'm in town. He also said he would loan me his favourite novels for me to try! Yeah, you can see why i had a bit of a thing for him, he likes books as much as i do! *L0L*

Anyhoo that is the latest on my life! 

SUMR

Hey luvies, 

I started my internship with RHC today *yAy*

I planned to reach RHC fifteen minutes early, but the fates were against me and I just barely made it on time. The buses were so crowded that three passed by before I could get on one, and after transferring to the streetcar we were rerouted due to an accident. Thankfully, we got back to the correct street before my stop or I would have been both lost and late. Thankfully I ran into a classmate and she told me she was certain my stop was after hers and thus eliminating any worry I may have felt. 

Once I arrived at RHC I was shown to my very own cubicle, which has a computer and a lot of filing cabinets. I can hardly wait to decorate it! You should see some of the other office deco, it looks fab! I was then given a tour, and though the layout is a little confusing at first, I’m sure I’ll get the hang of it. I already know the way from my “office” to the copy room very well! *L0L*

My boss DS wasn't there when I arrived due to doing something or other, so AwE, the other employee under DS, gave me a quick tour and tried to introduce me to people. Later when DS arrived I was introduced to more people, but I only remember two people's names because Nla has an accent and I spent time with IRS. I spent most of the morning with DS learning how to do some of the things I would be in charge of except when DS, AwE, IRS, and I went grocery shopping! It turns out RHC is doing sales conferences or something, so food and drink were needed. 

I get a one hour lunch and so I wanted to spend it outside in the awesome sun since it was so lovely out. I found a courtyard just behind the RHC building that has benches and steps, flower arbours and grass. There was some sort of school tour going on and I eavesdropped to learn that the area was the first ever public square in Toronto (then called York) and that the building directly behind RHC was the first court building. 

When I returned from my break the IT guy R showed up. I was technically still on lunch, but since R is sooo hard to get I didn't care. R set up my computer with log-ins and the like and went over how to use the system with me. It is still a bit confusing, but I managed to figure out some things on my own. I spent most of the afternoon sorting all the emails I received since I've been on five mailing lists for the past month! I think I was added as soon as they decided to hire me *L0L* 

DS passes on some of his emails to me to take care of, the things he taught me to do this morning. I had to send out a photo image to someone which requires finding it on one network for the isbn relating to the image, doing a search on another network to actually get the image, downloading and saving the image to my computer, then emailing it back. I also had a few book requests which requires me to search for the ISBN on the one website, enter it onto another website, adding the quantity and the mailing address, and emailing a confirmation to my boss. I also had to courier a couple things, and mail out others. I did have to ask questions that DS didn't cover in the quick morning lessons, and I hate bothering people, but that's better than doing it wrong. 

I found out that my internship goes until the end of July and will be for "summer hours"... basically that means I get friday afternoons off starting in a couple weeks. I will be helping with an author even later this month, and in the following two months they plan to send me to those on my own *eeep* At the end of my internship I will get an honourarium which will just cover the next month's rent. 

I was hoping I might get a job right out of my internship, but since AwE is only filling in for a mat leave, AwE would get first dibs on any opening positions. Unless I luck out and they need TWO new people, I don't really think I can count on them. That makes me a wee bit nervous since I need to get a job right away after my internship or I wont be able to afford to stay in Toronto. 

Anyways, DS let me leave early since it was my first day, but I didn't think ten minutes made much of a difference since there wasn't much for me to do yet anyways. But while waiting for the streetcar back home, the cute guy in my class was walking past me and stopped to say hi, I didn't even see him until he called my name. I said hi and hugged him before remembering that I don't hug people in Toronto, but it was habit *L0L* 

The return trip was uneventful thankfully and I decided to skip grocery shopping on the way back because my feet were killing me. I spent most of the day walking all over in my heeled knee boots which either have still not yet been broken in or are just going to be uncomfortable forever. 

So now I'm to find something to eat from what is left in my cupboards! 

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Allo m'dears!

I know that I've been right horrible with posting with any frequency. I used to do so well even though I was just writing about boring stuff like massive homework, cute boys, and evil customers. This past year school was great, but I didn't make any close friends and quite frankly very little of interest happened in my classes that I just couldn't find anything remotely close to being worthy of writing about

My last update, which I have no idea if anyone even read because I didn't get a single comment, I mentioned internship interviews. I had one with Harlequin for their editorial department during my last week of class and found out two weeks later that I did not get it. That very day I was asked to have an interview at Random House for their publicity department the following week and that went rather well. They said that I would hear from them by the beginning of the following week if I got the job or not. I also applied to Harlequin's marketing department, not that I was all that interested in marketing just that it was Harlequin. 

After my interview with Random House I decided to go home early for Easter and went home that very day. I hadn't heard from Harlequin about an interview and since I knew a classmate already had one I assumed I wasn't getting one. I did finally hear just before easter that they'd like me to come in for an interview on Easter Monday, but I had to turn it down because I wasn't going to be back in Toronto yet. But that was okay because the day right after my interview with Random House they asked if I'd like the position and I accepted! 

On Good Friday one of my best friends was having her birthday party. We were going to hang out at her house for a bit then hit the bar. I didn't feel up to the bar because I have to budget my money carefully right now and I wasn't feeling up to dealing with massive amounts of drunk people. There were very few male guests at my friend's house: her finacee, her sister's boyfriend, her brother, and one of their other friends. The friend took a bit of an interest in me after I watching me dance and stayed interested even after seeing me try to play wii (i lost every time), but he wasn't my type.

My friend's brother used to have a crush on me, but he was younger and my friend's brother so I never thought much of it. Apparently because I took very little notice of him over the years he ended up thinking I played for the other team for a while (arrogant or what?). I knew his interest didn't stem from my sparkling personality, but rather how I filled out a shirt. At the party he was nutty enough to ask if I wanted to make-out with him, and stupid enough to do so in front of his little sister. She grabbed a bottle of cleaner, saying "you'll need this first" and went to spray him with it

Sunday I went to church and a few friends who had moved away for school were there. It was fabulous seeing them all again and there were some new people there too, which is always nice. There is never any guys my age who is hot, single, and fabulous but c'est la vie. One of my other bff's cousin was there and, like my bff, he had red hair. My mum asked what his name was because she couldn't remember, and neither could I because all I could think of was Harry *L0L* But I was so beyond envious because I love gingers! I wish my hair was more red *le sigh*

I planned to go back to Toronto after Easter but since my internship wasn't going to start until May 9th, I decided to stay home a little longer. Mom thought I should stay until May 7th but I hadn't paid my rent and thus had to go back on the 1st. It is unfortunate because this guy I kinda used to have a crush on asked me to coffee but we never managed to set up a time that he had off before I came back. I guess it is better that way since I think he still has a girlfriend and I'd hate for her to freak out since she's the uber jealous type. It's not like it would have been anything but hitting up Timmy's to catch-up on how things have been, considering we used to hang out at least once a week and now haven't seen each other in nearly a year!

I know I shouldn't have had a crush on him anyways because he smokes, possibly drinks more than I'd be comfortable with, I don't think he's Christian, and at one point had said he didn't think he could date a girl who wouldn't sleep with him. Everybody knows that I hate cigarettes, dislike drunks, would never get serious about someone non-Christian, and am waiting until I'm married. I think my interest was based on the fact we were friends. The movie "Just Friends" theory on the friend zone is the total opposite for me! I have to be friends with a guy first before I'd ever date him. I know you're supposed to use dating as a getting-to-know-you but that always made me uncomfortable and nervous. I'd rather already know if I like a guy for who he is first.

Anyway, this past week I've basically hung out around the apartment reading and watching movies. I still haven't unpacked my suitcase from my two weeks at home because I hate hanging up clothing for some reason... especially since my closet is so tiny! I did do my first author blog tour stop this week and had a guest post on monday by Nancy Volkers and I will be posting a review of her book on friday (tomorrow). I was supposed to go hang out with a friend today, but I have a killer headache and a general feeling of suckiness. My dad was sick before I left and I wonder if I might have caught a wee bit of it. I just hope I'm better by Monday!!!

So there you have it. I have finally updated and a good and long one too! I am hoping I will write more during my internship since I'm sure lots of interesting things will happen, but I worry that I'll be too tired after working all day! I guess we'll just have to wait and see. 

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HAPPY EASTER WEEKEND!

I will be sure to have an update for y'all soon

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