November 16, 2012

• horrified, hopeful, and happy

  Well, I have to say that I am a bit shocked. I have had more people come onto my blog than have in a while, but only ONE person actually answered my previous post. What does that say? Is it just that religion is one of those taboo topics that may cause debate, or is it that no one wants to share their faith? It is a bit disconcerting and more than a little disheartening. As I had mentioned, I started going to a bible study in hope that I can become a stronger Christian. I was raised in a Christian household and, even though I have researched other religions, I was happy with being a believer of Christ. But this lack of response does prove something to me, even though no one was willing to answer my questions...

  Faith is dropping in North America, even as it flourishes in third-world countries. Why? Because we are all far to selfish to really care about anyone's well-being but ourselves. If I sound a bit disgruntled, I have reason beyond a lack of comments. I had also recently asked some people if they wanted to pitch in to make a donation to World Vision to help people who have far less than we do, and was told no. I suppose this wouldnt' have angered me half so much if I wasn't told "I'm pretty broke" and then seen some of them shortly thereafter go out for coffee or buy cigarettes or purchase a movie... The money spent on the video alone would have been enough to give some family three blankets; the coffee and cigs could have given another child school supplies. Too broke to help someone in need, but not too broke to buy something for themself. 

  My friend works for World Vision, and she wrote this. Sometimes, children are far more amazing than we give them credit for. 

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  Last week I came across this old article about a woman who has written to thousands of soldiers over the years, and this one about students doing the same. I had thought about doing something like this before when I read the book "Christmas Letters" probably about ten years ago now, but didn't have the nerve to write to a stranger and, to be honest, I was putting most my focus on getting through uni. Once I saw the article, it brought the idea back into my mind.  I know I love getting letters in the mail --in fact, I got one today!-- and I'm sure it would brighten up someone's Christmas so far from home. I was going to ask if anyone on here was interested in starting a writing campaign to send letters or christmas cards to soldiers overseas... but I wonder if there would be any point. If anyone is willing to give up some time and stamps, please let me know. 

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  Now, time for the happy part of things for those who've actually kept reading after my angered rant and hopeful plea. Okay, so it's probably nothing to you, but it sure made my day! I was texting with BB (for those who haven't been keeping up these past few months, he is one of the guys involved with the play) and we were talking about how some of us have decided to get together once a month. BB cannot because he moved the week after the show's run was finished, but myself, Gwen, Algy, and maybe Jack plan to. I was filling him in on our get-together last week and he said: "I always thought you and Algy were going to have an off-stage romance. It seemed like you had some feelings for him and that maybe he was reciprocating." 

  I told him it was just an overflow of stage stuff (I'm still a bit iffy whether I actually had a crush on him or whether it was just playing opposite each other with our characters falling in love). I mentioned that I was actually under the impression than both Algy and Jack had a thing for Gwen since they started a mutual admiration society, always gushing about how beautiful and talented she was whenever we went out for drinks. Yes, she is both and I'm proud of her abilities, but it made me feel invisible, gauche, and talentless because they didn't say anything like that to me. Am I being vain? Quite probably, but they wouldn't even let me participate in the conversation. It felt like the boys were competing for her notice...  even though she has a boyfriend already! I wouldn't want a guy who prefers some other girl to me, but I wouldn't have minded a more balanced conversation or a change of topic... like books, or movies, or plans after the play. 

  Anyways, after telling BB about the fan club he said: "Gwen is very cool and very good looking, but she's not someone I would pursue personally. If it's not too weird to say, you are more my type. You're beautiful in a special, quiet way that I find attractive. It's more appealing when beautiful girls don't flaunt their looks as much. You're small, and cute, and artsy, and all that. That's really more my type." Which was absolutely, unbelievably sweet of him! More often than not I feel eclipsed by sophisticated, gorgeous girls and wonder how anyone will notice me when my stunning friends are around... but now I know that there are people out there who just might prefer my company, and not just use me to get closer to my friends.  

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