May 15, 2011

• Allo Darlins'

  I got through my first week of interning and I really like it. I basically order books or courier books or mail out books, I put together the parts of press kits, i photocopy things, i file other things, i have learned how to bind a manuscript, i send out photos of covers and author pic to people writing articles about them, and that sort of thing. Speaking of making bound manuscripts, have you ever seen the machine that does it? It has teeth! I can totally imagine it being in a cartoon or have cg effects done in a movie because its just perfect for making scary *L0L* It is kind of interesting to hold a bound manuscript because you know in a year it will be a book on the shelves. 

  There is only one girl around my age who seems nice, but she works in a totally different department so we only see each other when passing through the mail room. the only guy close to my age is my boss, though i do occasionally see the cute guy from my class since he is interning at RHC's "sister" company. I guess i wont be finding a boyfriend here *L0L*

  I have been thinking about that a lot lately. In the past few months, two of my cousins have been mentioning that they really want to find a guy to settle down with. They are barely older than I am, one only by six months and the other by a year or so. I am turning twenty-eight this year and so I'm really feeling my singleness right now. What I dont know if it is because of my cousins, because of all the romance novels i read about nearing the dreaded 3-0, or if i am ready to think about marriage myself. 

  Karoline1892 came over yesterday for a movie night, but before we even managed to start the movie we talked about books we thought the other would like to read, and the guys that have been in or are in our life. I have never had so much fun! It isn't often that I can find someone who will talk about books like that with me. Even my classmates didn't sit around chatting about the greatest novel they just finished even though we all wanted to go into publishing. Anyways, two of the guys I had mentioned to Karo the other day, I ended up talking to tonight online. 

  There is this one guy I was kind of seeing for a while, a summer or two ago.  You may recall my mentioning him before, he is the one who had wanted to date me when we met years ago but i wasn't interested in that way at the time. He is so much like me in personality that everyone thinks we'd be the cutest couple, but i almost wonder if that isn't a problem. I can't help but wonder if I am right that we wouldn't work as a couple or if I would be losing out on the best thing that could happen to me, because I absolutely adore him... I'm just not sure I can fall in love with him. 

  He moved away a while back and now I see him even less than before. I sometimes try to talk to him online but he's hardly ever on and I don't think he remembers to check his email. He is working insane hours, so he's really busy and doesn't have time for much else. Whenever we do manage to msg, it doesn't seem like we have anything to talk about. I don't remember us talking much before either, mostly just hanging out places together with friends. 

  The other guy is one I had a crush on when I was in university. I saw him in the summers that I was home and later after I graduated because had the same favourite hangout. I knew at the time that he had a girlfriend, so we were only ever friends that verged on flirting. I don't think that he treated me any different really than any of the others, though I think he liked to tease me more because -as he says- I am very easy to fluster. We did have a lot of philosophical discussions, oddly enough, theology and books and the like. 

  It was his birthday not to long ago so I had messaged him to wish him a happy birthday and ask how his day went. I found out tonight that we were messaging back and forth while he was out to dinner with his parents! I am horrified that I was so rude, but I didn't know and I even think he mentioned me to them since tonight he said they were wondering what denomination I was. They are very religious like my parents, and that kind of pushed him away from it if I remember our past discussions correctly, and he mentioned that they were preaching at him again. 

  This one is a little bit more "bad boy" than the other in attitude, though I'm not sure why I think so. I have been praying about him for years that he will find a way back into faith and not entirely for unselfish reasons. I knew I shouldn't have a crush on him since he was in a relationship, but its not like i intended to do anything but look and talk. But I wanted him to be Christian because I was interested and because I wanted to know that he was saved. I really think he has the potential to be an all around wonderful person that the other guy already is. 

  These past couple months I noticed that the second guy had been getting in touch with me more and more. We planned on going for coffee the while I was down over easter but it never happened. I was kind of worried about that because i thought his girlfriend would freak out since she was the jealous type. And tonight we spent at least four hours messaging and texting! I found out that he and his girlfriend broke up about a month ago, he isn't happy about it, and is now trying to fill his time with books, exercise, and friends. He says he always finds it interesting to talk to me, but I don't know if that is just because i make him laugh from my quirks or that i am actually a good conversationalist. I always worry about boring people.

  Tonight we have made plans to try to get together the next time i am down, maybe for a walk or maybe hang out with a mutual friend of ours that promised to come visit me this time when i'm in town. He also said he would loan me his favourite novels for me to try! Yeah, you can see why i had a bit of a thing for him, he likes books as much as i do! *L0L*

  Anyhoo that is the latest on my life! 

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